Friday, April 30, 2004
Humming: Everything But The Girl - Missing
step off the train, i'm walking down your street again..
past your door, but you don't live there anymore. ..

it's years since you've been there...
now you've disappeared somewhere~ like outer space...
you've found some better place..

and I miss you~ like the deserts miss the rain...
-

felt quite ok for the past few days. not v.tired, not v.stoned but today was hell!~ felt sooooo tired and i need to go for my aikido lesson later. i think i can ko there later, who gonna come and collect my corpse? gotta zZzz the whole sunday manz! i know, i'm a pig!~ hehee...

woooh!~ lotsa dramas series vcds for me to watch!~ yeah!! ok, all are aired on tv stations before but i'm one that cant fixed my butt on the crouch everyday chasing those dramas.. hahaha prefer vcds marathon!

my supervisor is great!!~ gotta give him a big treat.. nono.. i'm not trying to bribe him!~ hhee... *ok.. it's our joke*.. time to tighten my belt haha.. yumyum *droolzz*


sLeep zZzzz @ 13:35

Saturday, April 24, 2004
Humming: Expose - I'll Never Get Over You (Getting Over Me)
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now, and I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right
-

life is really unpredictable, u will not know what will happen next...

heard from news that Mr Heng's corpse cant be retrieve from the ruins and the ppl in charge had decided to stop the search due to dangers involves. felt v.sad abt it, imagine if that happened to someone close to you...

Mr John Tan, was abt to enjoy his life soon at the end of this yr when his contact end. migrating to nz or aussie... *sighz*

both of them lost their lifes trying to save other ppl. not much ppl had that courage i believed..


sLeep zZzzz @ 00:52

Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Greatz!!! all shitty things happened in one day...


sLeep zZzzz @ 22:12 | 0 comments

*bored*
i should be sleeping now but. .. . .. . . . *sighz*


sLeep zZzzz @ 01:59 | 0 comments

Sunday, April 18, 2004
Humming: 蔡健雅 - 陌生人 [Tanya Tsai - Stranger]
*MTV Quote:
俩个人从陌生到熟悉.. . 不管结局是什么... 我们曾经相遇.. ..
我会因为这一分钟... .. .永远记得你... .. .. 陌生人再见了.. .

had a chat with sally from our sisters upcoming wedding dinners to us..
sally : how will u know that kT is the one..
w/o much, thinking, i just popped the answer to her..
zZzzz : well.. in relationship, if u think he is not be the one then i guess it will not work out eventually? but if he is not the one, then let it be lor....
zZzzz : well thats my point of view lah hehehe, everything is possible in relationship..

maybe in aspect of failure bgr, i believed i belongs more to those that can 'na de qi, fang de xia'. the initiate part could be v.tough, but as time goes by the feelings will slowly fade away and before u knew it, u might find someone much much better along the way in ur life..

many may beg to differ but well... that's me!~


Saturday, April 17, 2004
met up with kT, von, xiaoling, wenan at safra-tampines for Infernal Affairs Trilogies. watched all 3 before but went to watch again coz i felt that IA was a v.nice show. best of the 3, a movie with lotsa twists in plotz..
» the drug trafficking scene when moles from each side providing info for their respective bosses.. , the morse code thingy is greatz!~
» the sadness felt when tony leung saw his officer die.., those flashback of the things they done together..
» the scene when tony leung die.. , so sad! he dont deserved to die, he's a good guy.. and good guy dont normally die in movies!~
left the cinema with sunken heart when i 1st watched it and i can still feel those sadness when i watched it the 2nd time. maybe sometimes life can be real cruel in one way or other...

i felt that tony leung is a v.gd actor. in the past, he gave me those 'he is just another famous actor' feelingz only. maybe it is due to that role too? coz i liked that role most in the movie and he can really acted out those sadness, sorrow feeling unlike edison or shawn in IA2..


Friday, April 16, 2004
hohohoh.... felt v.dread to go aikido everytime, dont know why.. or it's my lack of passion in aikido?!? but i knew that once i reach the dojo, everything will be ok lolx!
instructor-in-charge today is that yandao.. can felt that he is in gd mood as he is smiling away and joking away thru out the whole training. previously, he always gave me the dao, strict, stern feelingz which can be be scary.. lolz =X

i peeked at the clock after 20 mins into the training.. hhaa! there's some improvement! 10 mins more before checking if the class is ending soon.. hahah!! but still cannot make it manz!~


sLeep zZzzz @ 15:54

Friday, April 16, 2004
Humming:
萧亚轩 - 地下铁 ~地下铁 主题曲
Elva Siu - Underground ~Sound of Colour OsT
*MTV's Quote
假如有人等你，你会跟他走多远?
感觉，会不会因为别离而更加深刻?

thanx kein kor for his concern =P hohoh, my mistake in the previous post. shouldn't put 'ex' as the mudder's aliases, i guess it's not a gd word to use as ppl might think that 'ex' as in bf/gf. heee, thus kor thought that i am back to single status =P

but why the use of 'ex'? i asked my friends before in it sec sch life but forgotten the details, who can refresh my memories?

tried on my sis's dresses for her upcoming wedding dinner. ok i am pig!~ pls come and slaughter me!! arghz~ look v.mamasan in one of the dress and i guess i have the mamasan's look.. =( remembered my groupie's makeover, looked like their mamasan lor! made my sis and mother laughed till the hell of them!~
really gotta slim down to fit in nicely~ arghz! box me if u see me eating flour again...


sLeep zZzzz @ 15:43

Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Humming: Billie Myers - Kiss The Rain
Izit late there? Is there laughter on the line? Are u sure u're there alone?
I'm Tryin' 2 explain Somethin's wrong, Ya just don't sound é same..
Izit stormy where u are? Coz I'm so close But it feels like u're so far..
-

had a weird dream last night, guess i had been mudding too much.
*only those who mud will understand the dream information below.

dreams~
recieve a bbs note from ex to request immediate fuse with me but the detail in the bbs note was quite threatening as in if i dont fuse, there was a feeling that something bad will happen to me in real life. well i would prefer low gen ppl to fuse my mth but as for ex, a higher gen char, i need to fuse his mth. *soobz*

and somehow had the habit to check who is online when i login to the game and realise alot of imm was online that day unhidden! the fuse date coming up soon was a v.gd date?!?! soon, i realise that ex was imm's restring name which is similar to one of the high gen char so the content of the bbs note was actually to fuse my mth giving him kps in return coz he is lower gen! hahah great!~

real life~
3 things happened concurrently, woh! was it an coincidence??!!
woke up, sis' woke me, sms coming in...
surprised that the sms was from zm as he had been mia for mths or a yr?
zm: still actively mudding?
zZ: nod
with continual exchange of some 'how are u thingy' etc etc

hahaha dreamt of mudding stuff and out of the blue received zm's sms regarding mud? hahha.. such a weird encounter to start my day but not a v.gd day actually. tummy giving me problem again!~ boooo.....


sLeep zZzzz @ 10:21

Friday, April 09, 2004
Humming: 梁静茹 - 最快乐那一年 [Fish Leung - Happiest Year]
... ..也许遗憾和年轻 总绑在一起.. 不容许一点委屈.. .. 等放手才懂惋惜.. ...
      ... .. .. . .... 静下心来发现过去大半是甜蜜.. 回忆.. ... . .... ..

ok, i should try not get irritated easily when i just woke up from sLeepz. blah blah excuses? but *arghz* that's me! ok i will try to change. felt bad on my 'little' harsh tone replying my mother this morning.

woke up early in the morning on a public holiday. yup, was going to my grandpa's tomb to shao mu. it was a long way there and suddenly felt the serenity with a touch of loneliness in the air? was it because the 5 ppl in the car werent chatting much and the topic revolve ard topic on illness/cancer blah blah...

parents were getting older, wish they would have a good life ahead. prayed that every loved ones will be healthy afterall health is the most impt thing as compare to wealth, career and etc. life is unpredictable and short. used to pray for everything last time but now, i only hope that everyone will be healthy.

funny as it seems, upon reaching the cemetery, those feeling was gone. felt actually better? am i weird? i guess it was due to seeing more ppl, hearing more noise, i lost my 'inner peace' thus the feeling of loneliness was gone.

some 'ritual' was done as in offering food/wine/money to my grandpa, gods etc and i concluded that i am quite so clueless on such stuff..


sLeep zZzzz @ 22:44

Thursday, April 08, 2004
Humming: 刘若英 - 分开旅行 [Rene Lau - Separate Tour]
.. .. . 不想要去证明.. 也不知道怎样证明 .. .. ..
. .. ...怀疑爱是可怕的武器.. 谋杀了爱情 ... .. .

You cant never know what others is thinking about.
I wish i had the ability to read other ppl mind.
But i guess everyone will run away from me if i had that ability!


sLeep zZzzz @ 17:53

Monday, April 05, 2004
Humming:
萧亚轩 - 地下铁 ~地下铁 主题曲
Elva Siu - Underground ~Sound of Colour OsT
我知道你会在那一头... .. . ... 我们将在对的那一秒碰头. .. ..... ..
下一站的出口.. 有人等我... 有人等我... 下一站的出口.. 你等着我...

oh! had so many stuff to write on for the last weekend but i was tired to do them and will note them down as today entry.

on my way today to wk on bus, i saw 2 guys seated down and started to flip their newpaper from the back simultaneously. the scenario made me recall that someone once said this to me when i was reading newpaper years back.

jones: erm girls is really girls..
zZzzz: - puzzled face given -
jones: girls and guys have different ways of reading newpaper..
zZzzz: - puzzled face given again -
jones: girls will always read newpaper from the front while guys will read newpaper from the back!
zZzzz: why?
jones: the sports section at the back mah...
zZzzz: ooooh.... .. . . !!


Saturday, April 03, 2004 [Red Cross Voluntery Work]
Thanx to my dad for giving a ride to tanah merah mrt station, thus i saved alot of $$ and time to travel from inaccessible hougang to expo. early saturday morning, met up with xiaoling and her colleagues to make our way into hall 4 for red cross voluntary work. it was an easy job, mending ppl's stall selling russian dolls, education softwares, traditional wooden ornaments for xmas tree.

It was quite fun joking with xiaoling's & friends.. hoho remember one incident that made me laugh painfully due to my muscles ache! when we saw a blood mascot 'Blood Buddy' trying hard to take a drink, xiaoling's friend made this comment 'Woh! Blood is thirsty!' Oops evil of us to joke on him, must be feeling really tired, stuffy, hot in that outfit. which made me recalled a scene in 'My Love Patzzi' where the mascot is waving happily to ppl but the person inside was giving those crappy stuffy, sweaty expression!! hahha!

Red cross is celebrating their 10th year anniversary and the VIP was mr president but i didnt saw him wahhaa! they will trying to find 10K new donors, well donated a little bit of my blood to a tissue paper wahha! i am unlucky, near to the end of the day and i got myself cut when trying to find new stock for pplz... *sueyZ*

Took some photos... Cute Blood Buddies *Huggies*


Friday, April 02, 2004 [After Aikido Lesson]
Woh! Was it becoz i stopped for 3 mths or was it becoz of the ex-chengsan yandao warming up exercise is toooo tedious for a pig like me? 3-4 mins of hopping on the spot? [normally just a few hops], 50 leg rise [normally like only 20 max?] etc etc *pondering* and i was already half-dead. i took a peek at the clock in the room, ooooooh my god! it was like only 10 mins into the lesson!? how am i going to survive *gaspz* praying for the time to pass faster! hohohoh, the feeling was the same when i started aikido 1 yr before but fortunately, i manage to survive the 1.5 hrs of training with lotsa muscles aches! till today i can still feel it!


sLeep zZzzz @ 14:37

Friday, April 02, 2004
Humming: 蔡依林 - 倒带 [Jolin Tsai - Rewind]
... . .. .... 终于看开爱回不来 而你总是太晚明白 ... .. . ..
. ... . .. 过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在 .... . ... ..

after 3 mthz of slacking, i am going back to aikido tonight. yes, tonight! need some determination from my rustie piggie brain to force myself to go coz i knew that if i dont go tonight, i can forget about going for the next 3mths and 3 mths and forever whahaha! =X argh.... 3 mths to forget everything i learnt for the past 1 year. omg, later ppl more junior then me will be wondering how come this brown belt senior so lousy manz! i think i am better than her! ^_^"


Thursday, April 01, 2004
went down to ntu to submit my registration fee. so unlucky!! on the way to ntu on bus, it started raining heavily. upon reaching the hall 8 busstop, realised that there's no 100% shelter to the super isolated administration annex. greatz! how to get there? estimate like 0.5km - 1km away from the busstop. a taxi came along and we hopped in, soon we reach the administration annex and the metre clocked $2.40! woh, 1st time alighted a cab at the rate of $2.40!~ stupid us, should had requested the taxi uncle to wait for us. wasted another $2.40 getting our way out of ntu.. *sighz* they should allow everyone who wanted to apply to ntu/nus make their payment through ATM machine! save my time n $$$ excluding those bus/mrt/cab fares...


sLeep zZzzz @ 14:37