Tuesday, January 25, 2005
i am so damn tired now @ 2300 which is so rare nowadays..

had been quite bz since my last post ard 2 wks ago..
gist of the post, treasure ur family and friends.. you would not know what will happened next.

i used to learn life-saving back in sec sch and poly times. learnt the skills to save ppl from drowning, learnt what to do when ppl were in shock, fainting, choking situation. learnt cpr, ear etc.. i learnt, but didnt had real-life hand-on and i wouldnt want to have the chance.. it's such a diff feeling between learning and applying the skill in real-life situation.

2 wks ago, my mum went for an ops to "tighten/remove" her 'floating' leg veins that had been 'torturing' her during nightfalls.. it is said that it could get worse and the feedback from grandma whom leg is full of 'floating' veins is that u can feel the 'million-ants-biting-sensation' throughout the whole leg during nightfall.

As small case as the ops seems to be, the ops least for ard 2 hrs and the doctor mentioned that my mum need not stay over @ the hospital after the ops and can go home after few hours of resting in the hospital. But we do not know how big/deep/many wounds are there on my mum's leg coz her whole leg was being bandaged up.

Everything seems to be quite alright after the ops, but during the wee hours of 1am-2, mum couldnt get to sleep and request for a cuppa warm milk w a piece of bread. after the light meal, she wanted to brush her teeth and i supported her to the washroom to wash up.
1-2 sec after she finished washed up, she said "i am feeling dizzy" and i was struggling to support her to rest on the seated toilet bowl but within the next 1-2sec, i can feel the whole of her weight was leaning towards her back although her eyes were still wide open!!
I totally lost-it, i dont care abt the nasty/crazy neighbour above and was screaming my lung out for my dad who is outside preparing his straw-mat on the floor to zZzz, fearing to kick my mum's leg accidentally when he slipped into his dreamland.. after 2nd round of screaming, my dad stepped in the toilet still wondering what had happened and I urged my dad to support my mum to rest on the toilet bowl and i was fanatically shaking her arm with dad patting his hand on her face to wake her up.
My mind was blank and i dont really recall what should i do when ppl faint and the thoughts of calling the ambulance is racing through my mind but all my dad and i did is to open the windows to make the air ventilate in the toilet and dad was holding on to some magazines, fanning in the toilet trying to create more ventilation.
Soon, my mum was back to semi-conscious stated, slowly back to conscious state.. my heart felt lighten for the 1st time in the past 20 mins and i was holding back my tears.. and i believed only ppl in similar situation before will understand my feelings.

For the 1st time, i was so afraid to lose my parent.. i knew facing ppl's death is unavoidable in the journey of my life but just the fainting incident had make me treasured my parent more. Coz there are ppl that fainted/concuss and never managed to wake up from it. I am very thankful that my mum is alright now and hope that my parent will have a long healthy life ahead. and i guess i will need to go for a re-course in life-saving.



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