Wednesday, August 31, 2005
if sleepysleep.blogspot.com is a real diary, it must had been covered with cobwebs and dust already.

havent had time to update, had always save draft on my random thoughts and few of them are still in the draft mode.

due to the different operation system [i guess] used at home and office, i was unable to work after office hour at hm to complete my task. kept having tonnes of error that i am really piss off. recently, i had to stay back @ office real late to complete my task! ARGH, i think i need to install winServer2003 in my home pc to try it out man!

lunar 7th month and we arent suppose to stay out late u know [dont remember going hm early for months =( ] had heard some 'creepy' stories on my 1st day of wk but kt was here to accompany me =)

for the past few wks, i was really tired coz was able to catch few hrs of rest only till 1 fine day i was really tired from the late night coding @ office till i dont have much energy to drag myself out of bed to wk. it was the feeling of the heaviness of my body mass that i dont feel like moving a inch but kt was there to drag me out of bed. Though he is as tired as me, he is there to motivate me to move my butt off the 'cosy' bed.

then.. @ work..
done something that i thought is right but i was wrong for the zth time. had spent days and nights trying to get the tasks done but i am still wrong. okie i am not a baby, they shouldnt spoon feed me with every single details but.... *sighz*

after being 'thrash' by boss remarks, i felt really tired. physically and mentally strained, felt my life enegry is slowly disappearing and i started feeling dread going to wk @ times. was wondering how long can i last.

felt like i was struck in a quick sand with no equipment to get myself to safety. the sand is slowly catching up on me and i am slowly sinking down to nowhere..

"give urself 30mins, if still cant get the prob solve, call for help."

i also wish i can bombarded all my queries from time to time to someone, but can i? everyone was bz with their own jobs and i will be quite pissed if someone kept asking me qns mins after mins.

but theres one person that i can keep asking for help w/o getting pissed is kt. but he dunno .net, he can only try his best to help me by searching online help and i wonder why his skill in searching online help is so much better than me!

Finally, just before the clock strike midnight, i got it right!

had a 'what if there's no kt' thought during one toilet break..
cant really imagine what will happen if there's no kt.

i guessed i wouldnt have
- much energy to motivate myself to adapt to the new environment.
- have someone to cheer me up when i am down.
- have someone to crap with me.
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the list go onz...

kt, if u ever see this, i wanna say... I LOVE U! PORKPORK!


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